I have just not felt like blogging lately. Nothing interesting has happened at all. I continue to be out of work from my theatre job. As a result, there's no extra cash flow to do anything. I sit at home surfing the internet or reading most of the time.. Granted, we all need a little down time but this is ridiculous. It's been almost three months and it may be another two or so months. It may be longer.

I had planned to use this time to figure out what I want to do. I keep getting great ideas, at least they seem great at the time and then get shot down by my roommate. I think it's time to get a new roommate. I feel as though I have anchors tied to my feet keeping me from taking off. I never planned for life to be this way. The last fifteen years have been so depressing. Yes, I've been through a lot and I wouldn't be the person I am today were it not for all the crap in my life.

When is it supposed to get good? I am tired of living for the future. I want to live in the now and enjoy every damn minute. I want to wake up every morning excited with anticipation for what the day will bring. I want to have fun everyday. There's only one problem; I have no idea what to do with myself. If I have a goal, I can get focused and take off. I have no goal and no passion at the moment. I am presently just existing. Would someone please shake me up and get me moving?

As Always,
TOO