Connecting to the past...

There comes a point in everyone's life that mortality sets in... not in a bad way mind you. Time moves faster and faster and then you begin to realize there's a finite time to this plane of existence - sorta makes you prioritize the things important in your life and conclude a lot of crap we put ourselves through just isn't important anymore.

For this reason - the last few weeks have caused me to reconnect to the past.... in a strange attempt to make sense of where I've been and where I want to go. Not too long ago I posted the story of finding my mother's recipe boxes and all the memories it brought back. Yesterday I was going through some boxes of old photographs and ran across a particular item that sent me for a loop.

I found a memorial card from my father's funeral in a metal box. I've been trying to find some connection to my father for years because he died when I was little. The only memories I have of him were his last year, mostly being ill and the last time I saw him in the hospital a day or so before he died. I could never remember the time of year when he passed but for some reason had always thought it was in the Spring.

I looked at the date on the card... July 31, 1968. The date means nothing for most but July 31st is my youngest son's birthday. My Dylan was born exactly twenty-five years to the day my father passed.

Coincidence?? I guess so... but for me it was profound. This was the first time I've felt a wink and a nudge from father and a reminder that he's still around keeping an eye out for me. I'm beginning to wonder what I will discover next.

The adventure has just begun...

A brand new start!

Wow.... it's been a very long time since I've posted anything here. So long in fact I forgot I had started this blog.

As I looked back to see what I had written, I could see the pain I was going through and trying to cover it up with sarcasm and wit. Truth be told, I'm not the best writer and not witty enough to use sarcasm as well as other. But I'm hoping to get better.

I decided a few days a go I would resurrect this blog, perhaps change the focus to include things I'm more passionate about - food and the process of becoming ???. I'll use the question marks because I'm not really sure what I'm becoming. What I know for sure is I'm much happier these days even though the days are not perfect. I have people (and a person) in my life I love a great deal. I've made a ton of new friends through social media, caught up with a few from the past and am doing my best to stay in touch with everyone.

I've found my law of attraction folks.... or they found me.... or we were attracted to each other.... you get the picture. I've been in discussions about Abraham-Hicks (always lively) and have even been to a couple workshops.

What I hope to accomplish with this blog is talk about the process of becoming, however that will turn out. The adventure has begun.... hope to see you on the other side!
xoxo

Beautiful Day!

Today I actually got up off my butt and did something. I met a good friend and went a yoga class. It's been a while since I've taken a class so I was a little worried. Boy did I get a good work out! At times my legs were shaking but I made it through the class.

After class we went to grab bite to eat and catch up. We had a great time - my friend always makes me laugh. How did I get so blessed to have such funny friends? We talked a good hour. As we walked up Eighth Avenue, we ran into one of our bosses at the theatre. He has a new dog! What a cutie.

It's getting closer to the theatre reopening. I can't believe it's been dark since the end of November. When we come back, there will be brand new seats and carpeting. From what our boss hinted at, we may be standing in the wings during the show? I have no idea what he's talking about because I think he wants to surprise us. God knows what he has planned for us. I'll just be glad to be working so I can stay out of trouble. As I get more news, I'll start reporting behind the scenes.

As always,
TOO

Dancing with the Stars!

Week 2
I'm so addicted. I couldn't get on to the show in it's first season but have slowly been becoming attached. I have to watch this season - mostly because I want to see how Joey Fatone does. I've always thought he had charisma (and I like the funny ones). I had seen him perform a couple times on Broadway over the years and there is just something about him that is enjoyable. He looks like he's having such a good time that you can't help but be drawn into his performance.

I think the competition is going to be tough this year. Leila Ali has got that fighter spirit and I think it's going to be her and Joey head to head. Exciting to say the least!
As always,
TOO

Spring has Sprung!

I haven't posted anything in a while. I couldn't think of anything to say or at least think of anything I thought was worth reading.

I love this time of year. I've never been a cold weather person. Us So Cal gals like the beach and fun in the sun! I am deeply affected by SAD and have an acceptionally difficult time in February. Like magic, I start to feel better the first day of March. Maybe it's all in my head. I can only report my personal experience.

The past six months have been a period of transition for me. I'm feeling that deep desire to create, do something...anything. I just can't seem to figure out what it is yet. I've always had a secret desire to write...so I've been writing and nothing seems to be coming of it. I've got several notebooks filled with my writing and most of it is nonsense. I guess there's still that deep fear of not being good enough or thinking who would care to read anything I wrote. I'm waiting for the muse to come and visit and tell me what it is I'm supposed to do. I'm still waiting....

As always,
TOO

Where is everybody?

I just realized I hadn't posted in a while. I found a new forum that I'm now addicted to. Part of the forum is a section about playing your way to better sex. I can't stay away. All of the posters are very funny and very intelligent. It's very free and open but not nasty or "dirty." There's a lot of sexual inuendo and play. Most of what I love is the humor. I believe if you can laugh about your sexuality, you've got a pretty healthy attitude towards sex. I've found it to be a safe place to discuss the differences between men and women, what people like and don't like but most of all, a place to express yourself without fear of judgement. If men and women could actually have open dialogues about sex, we would all have a much healthier attitudes towards the act. How else are we to find out what the other wants and not feel so ashamed about our bodies? Let's have more openness for all!

As always,
Too

Vision Boards

Recently I purchased a small bulletin board to start a vision board. I've been cutting out pictures and downloading places to put on this board. The purpose is to bring to mind all the things I'd like to manifest into my life. I've always been pretty good at bringing things into my life however lately, I've kinda lost focus. When I say lately, I don't mean the last couple months but the last few years. I feel I've made a positive change since the fall. It hasn't been all smooth sailing but I'm definitely made progress.

One of my strong suits is my ability to encourage others. I have a talent for spotting what it is people are trying to accomplish and pushing them gently on. I love to celebrate the best in others. There's something so wonderful about complimenting another. We just don't do it enough these days.

Back to the vision board...my goal is to put out as much positive energy to pave the way to happiness. I love to get that spark of inspiration and go with it. How exciting is that!

As always,
TOO